I had a whole post that I was working on getting out today, but I decided to switch gears after yesterday. Same topic different twist.
When I was pg with Kalila I assumed I would have no problem nursing in public. I knew that there would be times it would be necessary. I knew that it was my legal right to do so. I went out and bought a nursing cover because I bought into the whole “you need a cover” in order to do it modestly concept. And that was the end of that…
Then she was born and it was not so easy. I was so nervous about feeding her when we were out. I pumped bottles for Church. I used them when we went out to restaurants with family too or actually went and sat in restrooms or the truck if I didn’t have one. The first (restroom) one being something I absolutely cannot stand the idea of, and didn’t like then either. That’s just disgusting. It took the bottom of a bottle breaking at a restaurant to stop the whole bottle thing. The food was just coming or something like that so I grabbed a blanket and actually nursed right there that time. Over time I got used to NIP.
I don’t remember where I was in that the last time I wrote on this subject. Kalila was about 5 months old at the time though lol. By then I was a member of CafeMom and had learned that it is possible to NIP uncovered w/out being immodest. I wasn’t comfortable trying it, but I was learning that there may be a day it was necessary since so many were saying their babies flat out wouldn’t deal with a blanket after a certain age. I commented on that in my post… and I was right. It did happen to me, not much longer after I posted that I believe.
So I got nursing tanks and practiced nursing her by positioning her, pulling down the tank, up the shirt.. getting her on and everything w/ nothing showing. It was pretty easy. And I quickly realized it has one huge advantage. Much less noticeable than a cover. Seriously… which picture do you think I’m nursing in?
Trick question because I was NIP in all 3 of those.
So yeah… I very quickly decided that I really do prefer nursing w/out a cover. For several reasons.
Got pg w/ Zavier and figured I would have an easier time w/ it than before… and I was right this time. Very few times that I’ve been uncomfortable with it. I still use a cover in certain situations. May grumble to myself about it a bit, because its summer and hot here and I feel horrible for doing that to him. But still… Most days that we’re out I nurse him uncovered at some point in the trip with absolutely no problems.
Yesterday was an exception though. We went to the bookstore and he woke up after we’d been in there a bit. Kalila was playing with the train set (and a couple of little boys) and Baba had just gone to look for a book he needed when Zavier woke up. So I got him out of his wrap (I still can’t seem to nurse in it) and got him adjusted. Should have been fine except the poor thing is teething so his gums are sore. Plus he had gas… Poor little guy was miserable.
So he’s screaming.. I’d get him latched on for a minute or two but he’d pull off and cry some more. I felt horrible for him, was wishing we’d brought his teething gel (Hylands not Orajel) or something… but we hadn’t. And I had two other mom’s there watching me so that little thought in the back of my head started going off on the whole “what are they thinking right now” just making me unsure of myself in ways I haven’t been since Kalila was this age. Of course thinking back about it, its easier not to worry about what people are thinking when you’re not having problems that are making you uncomfortable.. and this definitely was.
After a few minutes of it I tried to get Kalila to go w/ me to find Baba so we could go, explained to her that Zavier’s teeth were hurting and everything… but of course she wouldn’t listen to me, was having so much fun. At that point another mama told me her son does the same thing and we talked for a few minutes. Her oldest is just a month or so older than Kalila, and the youngest is 18 days old (I suppose 19 now lol). I felt a little better after that, mostly about Kalila’s attitude lol… but still worried about Zavier. Got Baba finally and he managed to help a lot. Main problem wasn’t the teething like I thought, but gas and Baba arms tend to help with that.
Anyways, I had to change my post because of that. Felt like I got a little over-confident w/ the whole subject lol. I’m not nervous about doing it again. He has to eat. We have to go out sometimes. I just need to take it one day at a time and not just assume its gonna go a certain way. And work on not caring what other people think lol. Apparently I haven’t gotten past that as much as I thought I had either.