Facebook and junk

Yeah I know I never post here anymore.  Honestly I have no desire too lately.  I don’t know if that’ll change or not anytime soon…  Or ever.  But this is way too long for a Facebook post (and it isn’t just one person and I don’t know entirely who all is involved so directly messaging them is not going to work) so I’m doing it this way.  Forgive me if I ramble here,  there’s several issues tumbling around in my head and I’m a bit all over the place. 

So I’m getting some slack over Facebook posts again.  

First off,  I did not intend to come out on Facebook.  Ever really.  I came out to Jas.  I came out to a few other people I trust.  Despite posting a lot on Facebook,  I really don’t like attention overall.  Shy.  Introverted.  It may be 100% easier for me to talk online, but still.  Beyond sharing articles or memes that catch my attention for one reason or another or the crazy things that happen in our lives (mostly because I’m alone with kids all lol) it just isn’t going to happen.  At the same time I didn’t want to out right hide it anymore either.  That shit causes issues and has for me,  I can’t do that anymore.  

So yes I posted an article here and there when they came up over situations going on. I share jokes from those pages a lot,  because I share jokes (ESP puns)  all the fucking time no matter what page they’re on.  A few people caught on pretty fast just from that,  which was fine…  And it would have stayed there but for a specific situation this summer.  

I can’t/won’t go into details,  but a friend needed help and outing myself was the easiest way to do it.  By that point I didn’t care as much.  So yes I posted more and was more open. Put it on my profile.  Life continued,  the situation sorted itself out of sorts.  By the time Bi Pride day and Coming out day came around I didn’t think twice about posting a couple things and then moved on.  

Maybe I should have made a full post on it and explained,  but I didn’t want to make a big deal about it.  I knew a few people wouldn’t like it,  but I didn’t think it was going to be this big of a fucking issue.  

So for anyone “concerned”.

Yes I am bisexual.  

Don’t worry about my marriage.  Jason and I are great.  He’s an amazing and supportive husband.  I’m not going to cheat on him.  I don’t fucking do that.  I hate cheating.  I hate lying.  Repeating I. Hate. Lying.  Won’t leave him either.  He’s stuck with me.  

No I’m not going to completely stop liking or sharing posts if they’re something I…  Like… Or if I think they say something that needs saying.  Or are about an issue that is important to me.  Just because you’re tired of hearing about it or don’t agree doesn’t mean it isn’t important to someone else.  

Keep in mind I’m not actually sharing 99% of those posts.  If it’s public and I like it,  the post will show up in your feed.  I can’t control that.  You can.  I can’t.  I’ve tried.  

On that note,  I am here at home 90% of the time.  I have horrible horrible anxiety around people and phone calls.  There’s only so much I can do with this shit.  I have sent emails,  I have made calls,  I try to go out when there are protests (not that I always make it) so assuming that I just sit behind a computer and complain (yes that’s been said too) is insulting on top of being bull shit..  But sharing the info can be helpful to a point.  And…  It’s my page.  I’m not going to other people’s and posting shit (which has also happened on mine).  I’m not telling anyone else what to post,  even when I disagree with it.  If it’s someone I think will have a reasonable discussion I may comment..  Because I have had some great conversations with friends that disagree on stuff…  But others I just ignore.  It isn’t that hard.  I will admit I’m floored by what a few people have said or posted lately,  the same way they are by me.. But I’m trying hard to stay polite.  I would like the same respect.  

How we raise our kids is up to me and Jas. I am,  always will be up for recieving advice..  But our kids have been,  and will continue to be,  raised in a tolerant household.  I love my kids.  End of discussion. 

If you have an issue with me,  or a question about me,  or whatever…  Come to me.  Trust me anyone else that would know me well enough to answer,  other than maybe Jas,  will tell you to anyway.  

As crazy as the last few years have been,  I have no regrets over coming out.  That it took so long yes.  Over all the hel I went through before yes.  But not over this.  Jas and I are closer than ever.  Mental health wise I’m doing a fuck ton better.  Going back in the closet is a non option.  

If anyone doesn’t like that, too bad.  You don’t have to like me.  I’m completely OK with that.  I’m not going to apologise for being myself.  I’m not going to try to be someone else.  

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MPM 13 March -20 March Lent & Irish Week edition

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Yes I have an extra day added in… Partly because I’m starting Irish week on the 13th and partly because I haven’t been posting lately so that meal isn’t up anyway.  I really need to get back to posting too… I like the planner I’m using here, but they tear off weekly and I end up with no record of what we’ve been having :-/

Sunday – Dubblin Coddle

Monday – Bubble & Squeak

Tuesday – Bangers & Mash

Wednesday – Dubliner Cheese stuffed Chicken Breasts

Thursday – Bacon & Cabbage, Champ

Friday – Colcannon

Saturday – Stuffed Rabbit (may be changed…)

Sunday – Pork Chops

 

Where’d the Time Go?

Gah, I just realized how long it’s been since I posted ANYTHING…

Short version… Life with twins/5 kids is insanely crazy more often than not. I love it… and honestly, so far, it really hasn’t been bad. But still crazy and busy and exhausting. And we moved! Finally… So add in all that goes with that. I’m still not done unpacking (but getting closer and closer).

The kids are doing well in school, even if it’s been a bit of a mess. They were at one last semester and moved to another this. Noone was really happy about it, and we’re hoping to put them back at the other next semester. This one isn’t bad, it just doesn’t have all of the options the other has and ZJ needs.

ZJ… was tested for SPD and Austim at the first school.  He definately has SPD, but was just a few points shy of the cutoff for Autism.  Which on one hand is great (not to say it wouldn’t be either way – we just wanted to know), on the other means he doesn’t qualify for anything with the district. We worked out a plan to get him as much help as we can right now though, and the second school is (somewhat) attempting to follow it. He’s still making progress there at least and some of it is bigger than the progress he was making before even.

Kalila I feel worse for, just too many changes one after another. She’s still doing great… but she misses her friends and is going back over things they had already covered, so she’s a bit bored too.

Keiran I’m trying to work with at home, but that’s easier said than done right now… We signed up for a trial of reading eggs recently though, and he absolutely loves it. He’s right in the middle of his 3’s though and it shows. He is a handful lol.

Anisa & Leith… They’re 8 months old now. It has flown by… Both are crawling and cruising all over the place. Nici has 2 teeth fully in, and 2 more coming through. Leith is still toothless lol. Both eat everything in sight. They fight like mad, not all the time… they play just as often… but still over everything.  The worst bit is while nursing… I try to avoid tandem when possible because it never fails they decide they want the same side and start shoving, pinching, etc…

Charlie had to go stay with a friend. Noone is really thrilled about it, but there’s just no way she could stay in an apartment.

And I guess that’s it for now…

MPM 24 August – 30 August

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Before I post my menu, last weeks new recipe (the lemon butter chicken) was a huge hit. I had to adjust a bit, partly because I can’t/won’t use thyme (I don’t want to risk drying up… I’m sure the amount in it would be fine, but not a risk I’m willing to take with twins) and partly because  we only had drumsticks. I really thought we had the thighs, but oh well – it worked just fine!

Taking a break from our normal beans & rice Monday night this week too.  Today was the first day of school (not sure I’m ready to talk about that lol) and it’s one of the kids favorite meals… plus is always nice to have Baba cook!

Monday – Brinner

Tuesday – Carnitas

Wednesday – Creamy Mushroom Chicken

Thursday – Spaghetti

Friday – Tilapia

Saturday – Beef Fajitas

Sunday – Ranch Pork Chops

MPM 17 Aug – 23 Aug

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We ended up a bit off menu last week, but I did manage to try the new recipe that I snuck in… The beef & broccoli.  I’m really happy with it. Kalila was the only one who didn’t like it… which is saying something because Baba can’t stand cooked broccoli normally.  Is definitely going to be made again 🙂

Monday – Beans & Rice

Tuesday – Lemon Butter Chicken

Wednesday – Beef Stroganoff

Thursday – Jalapeño Popper Chicken

Friday – Salmon & Asparagus 

Saturday – Philly Cheese Steak Stuffed Peppers (moved from last week…)

Sunday – Oven Fried Pork Chops

Our Week

No quick takes this week…

 Mom (Granny) came in on Sunday and stayed until Weds morning.  The kids had a blast of course…                                   11822853_10155893318940103_128878129158271071_n 11831778_10155893154900103_8715391180040375008_n 11866386_10155893674620103_2758531906695194758_n 11873414_10155902139675103_387781888234866059_n11817232_10155896611470103_6396199060530233365_n

Baba enrolled Kalila & ZJ in school… Sigh… I have mixed feelings honestly.  I liked homeschooling last year… I liked the Circle School the two years before… Not an option for us this year sadly, and I get that… but I hate the idea of where they’re at even if everyone else around me feels the exact opposite. But on the other hand, it does equal out to some kind of a break during the day… and I’m still doing school with Keiran (not nearly as involved, he’s only 3) and a good chance still doing Spanish with Kalila after school, unless by some chance she has it there… Trying to focus on that lol.

I’m sure there were other things that happened… but that’s about all I can think of at the moment.